Yesterday, while mapling happily with my maple-dear Nagisin, something un-expected happened, keith, wrote in buddy chat that his eyes hurted alot, i was worried as a friend, i begaun to ask him if he was alrite, he sadi he was, but kepts oon complaining, i could'nt stand his stubboness anymore, i started to get a bit over work-ed out, i caps at buddy asking him to go and rest, reguardless knowing that my dear was on9, we quarrel, he sai ie was so different when nagi was on9 and nagi was off9, releating to the inncident, ie showed him middle finger infront of nagi, he tought tha tie was acting differently, actually, not, b4 nagi was on9, b4 he went for his clan war, ie was chattign with him, den 2 childish girls came scolding me and him, den we short of pointed middle finger, thats the reason y i actually pointed at him, because, i tot he will take it as a joke, that i normally dose, but he dint, he thinks tha tinfront of nagi, ie treated him badly, and behind ie was so good to him, he was so wrong, he flared at me, telling me that i never gave him a chance to say what he wants to say, i asked myself, i did, but he did not tell, i even shouted in buddy tha tie fucking love him, thugh nagi was on9, cause, tha twas the past already, i dont love him no more since that last time we broke up, while quarrelling with him, in rl, my parents wrer pissed off about me, they almost used a stool to wack me, i'm a very emotional gal, thats y i cried, when the first time i patch with keith, i cried every day, i really wanted him back so badly, but, the 2nd time we patch, i felt no feelings for him at all already, i dont love/like him no more, and finally ytd i let him say all the things he kept so long to himself, i was happy that he tell it all out, i phoned him at night askign him if there is any thing he wanted to say, he tould me every thing and i understand and tould him that i'm just not the gal for him, and its impossible for us to get back any more, i love-ed him, thats was the past, and now, i really truely love nagi, since the day we were together, 090807, i know i must settle my feelings for him, i dont like that maple character that he is playing, insted i love the person behind it, the one who has the qualties that ie love, no matter how he looks like, it dose not matter, i love him as who he is, he's my baby, one and only, cant lose him, and ill prove to him that i'm not treating him as a replacement of keith, i know that he has been treated that way b4, i wont let him get hurt anymore, i love him alot, i want gain back the trust he had for me, i love you baby, please give me a chance to prove to you.